nothing unsual

its been a while since i last update my blog..AND bcoz there's NOTHING interesting happen in my life for me to talk about..(well there is but i forgot bout it..haha) so i guess dis week post will be just plain boring..

DAA~

cita-cita ku yang tak kesampaian

dulu mase aku kecik2..aku suuuukeeeeeeee sgt lukis..xkisah la lukis ape..smp dinding pn aku conteng la kn..(biase la..bdk2)..then bile aku dah besar..(xda la besar sgt..hehe)..time aku sekolah rendah..aku dah pndai gak la bab2 drawing ni..kire small matter j la kn..(muahahaha!!)..pas2 cikgu skolah ni biase la..bile dah discover bakat2 anak murid dier..mule la nk libatkan anak murid 2..so x pasal2 name aku dimasukkan dalam pertandingan melukis peringkat skolah..ak pn xingt bape skolah sumenye..(bdk2 la katekan)..disebabkan ak ni just pndai lukis tp TIDAK mewarne..(aku x suke colour)..so aku dapat 2nd place j..(hahaha..dpt adiah gk kn)..then bile aku mencapai standard 6..aku dh berangan utk jadi pelukis..wow!..hehehe..msti best kn wat keje yg kite minat..tapi...........dats wat i thought..time aku form 1..bakat lukis melukis ni kian dilupekan..sbbnye..skolah mngah kn xda sgt prtandingan lukis ni..so aku move on to more advance dat still involved art..graphic design..mcm aku design..tp kbnyaknnye ak x tnjuk kt org coz rase x layak kot..(hahaha)..oh yea..baju club ak design tau~..hehehe..mn ilang ntah baju 2..huuu..so bile dah mkin remaje..ak dah tau target aku..aku nk nk jd graphic designer!..lps j spm..ak plan nk amik la course 2..tp course 2 just ade luar ipoh..aku lg SUKE!!..hehehe..ipoh j bosan kn..hehe..tapi......sedih.....parent gua talak kasi wooo..sooo TERPAKSE la aku amik course yg ade kt ipoh ni..so tercampak la aku kt poli doing diploma in electrical engineering..(which i REALLY HATE!!)..3 years of torture..aku mmg xtau sepatah haram pn..(smp mid term aku fail sume subject except BI)..hehehe..sucks kn??..bile dh masuk sem 3..aku dah tau yg cita2 aku nk jd graphic designer mmg xkn ade..so aku pn lost identity la kononnye..xtau nk jd ape bile dh graduate..LOST!!..so lps aku brjaya abiskan 3 thun yg sengsare..aku pn try la nk refresh kn blik bnde yg aku ske n tau..(bkn lukis eh..tp ni yg lain)..music..nsib baik la ade organ kt umah aku..main la aku..hehe..tau2 ade org ajak join band..aku pn join la..n at dat time..aku mcm dah tau mn aku nk pergi..aku plan nk blaja music ngn lbh mndalam..mn tau bole main okestra k kn?..(mcm dasat sgt j)..tapi......after a year...something wrong happen..aku quit..n quit playing music..lps 2 aku pn wat la keje2 yg aku xsuke..dari jd assistant project manager k project executive smp la skng jd make up artist..

p/s : bile la aku bole wat keje yg aku suke...*SIGHHH*

couple or kongkong?

xkire la samada couple budak2..remaje2..or yg dah dewase..bile dah declare j "couple" mule la kite akn wat list of janji2 yg harus ditepati oleh masing2..contohnye.."jgn wat perkare yg dibenci".."jgn bermsg ngn mn2 "lelaki"..jgn itu jgn ini..mcm2 la lg..n my favourite.."delete sume kwn lelaki/perempuan dlm fb or myspace"..haha..lawak giler kn..korg ni nk couple ke nk kongkong??..omg..ape la gunenye korg couple tapi masing2 nk control masing2..couple ni berdasarkan kepercayaan n kasih sayang..so trust la org yg KONON nye korg "sumpah aku syg giler kt dier" 2..rite?..ak ingt lg..mase 2 ak poli if im not mistaken i was in sem 3..mase 2 class ak ade wat jamuan raye..n it was held at my house..so sume org la ade kn..name pn jamuan..spe xnk mkn free wey!..so disebabkan wat kt umah bujang..so ktorg pn separate kn la guys n girls..guys outside..girls inside..mknn kt tgh2..hehe..utk mengelakkn ape2 berlaku..mn la tau tibe2 JAIS dtg kn..xpsl2 rmi2 g balai..huuu~..anyhooo..tgh ktorg syiookkk mkn2 lepak2..tibe2 ade org dtg daa..non other than bf si classmate ak ni..dier dtg srh classmate ak ni blik..sbbnye dier x ske awek dier mix ngn laki..padahal kwn j kot..bkn ktorg wat wild party mabuk2 peluk2 mcm dlm american pie 2 kn..hahaha..tp 2la..some guys..kuno giler beb..klu awek dier x blik break trus wa ckp lu..adehh..lg sorg classmate ak gk ade kes yg same..1 jabatan tp class lain2..bf dier ni x bg awek dier ni sembang ngn other guys..klu ade xsigmen grup for sure la mix guys n girls kn..jeng3..bf dier xbg..fuck giler kn..hello~..org lain pn bercinta gk..ak x fhm la org2 mcm ni..kepada manusia2 yg berperangai sebegini rupe..percaya la kpd pasangan anda..klu x percaye jgn couple..x pun klu xle sgt..khwin la pas2 srh dier ddk umah diam2 baik lelaki mahupun perempuan..

rebond to perm?

since its already the year 2011..n my hair had been kinda the same style for years - which is straight - soooo..ive decided to perm it but for now (sementare nk tgu ade duit..hehe) i only do it DIY..n bcoz of lack of curling iron ive finally found a way (wit the help to youtube-thank u very much) to do a little curl bit kinda wavy wit a straigthing iron..YESS!.. a straighting iron ladies n gentlemen..its kinda simple too..but it doesnt last dat long but ur hair will luk a little bit volumise though..n oh yea..more sexy~..hehehe..more mature luk..n besides rebond hair is soooo last year kids~..(no effence for u guls out there)..silky straght hair is still sexy but i just wanna change it coz im bored wit it..(its time a change)

                                                    im in luv wit her hair

television sometimes can be bored n freaky

lately there has been SOOO many freaking horror movies..serials..drama n even comedy on tv..AARGHHH!!!..x tenang nk tgk tv ok!..i can only watch the drama part but when the horror ghost-coming-out-im-gonna-scare-you-to-death part appears..pillow is my best buddy..YES..im afraid of  ghost..who doesnt??..ok2..some doesnt..but I DO!!..period!..but recently i heard my hubby saying..ghost doesnt actually bother u or scare u to freaking out off mind EXCEPT it is sent by someone to harm u OR u do something they dont like..sooooo..i kinda not dat afraid anymore?..hahaha..but anyway those ghost horror stories really gotta stop or maybe just slow it up for a while..its like a horror season for the tv station..haloween much??..i dont think so dude~they really ought to air some for a change..n speaking of comedy..they REALLY have to stop airing "anda ada 60 saat" triple episode on sunday or is it saturday..its REALLY BORING!!!

okay

okay..so it has been a few weeks since the last msg from my ex-bandmate n they kinda wanted me back wif the band..well some of it..but when i think bout it thoroughly..i made up my mind n its a NO..i wont be back even if they wanted me to..i dont have a heart towards them anymore..so yeah..im a stubborn girl..i hate people who takes me for granted n act as if im a gud for nothing being..thanx anyway for the invitation..appreciate it very much..

what i miss

dalam hidup ni banyak perkara yg sometimes bile kite fikirkan blik mmg kelakar sgt2..kkdg bile fikir blik rase rindu plak even if dat certain ocasion is just plain silly..but dat silly n funny thing is wat we miss the most..like having a joyride wif a bunch of friend doing nothing at all..seems pointless to anyone but the fact we r hanging out wif our friends is means the most..there r lots of things i had miss in my life..n i mean REALLY MISS THEM..for the past years..well not really years~ but a few years back..i kinda miss my skool years..ok not the study part..mmm..ok frankly i dont miss my skool years..coz it kinda sucks..hehe..the past where u wanna forget but only remember certain part of it..get me?..if u dont then lantak kome la~!..sadly to say i dont quite miss my polytechnic years either.hahaha..maybe i kinda had a really bad final semester where ive been an outcast among my friends for something i dont do..yes..DONT DO..but wth..i still live till today n still hapy wif it..i have to say..i kinda miss my days when i work at kl coz there ive met wif a really great friend who had been wif like forever!..through thick n thin..through hardship n sickness..always there when u needed a friend..n its kinda fun living in kl (for a certain time though)..for the record..i miss kl coz i miss my friend who is currently staying in pj..the others??..NOPE..not at all..but now my life i great..im loving wat im doing..im loving wat im seeing even there r some rotten pest has been running n talking around but i dont care..hehe..

p/s : yang..dont be mad when i said i miss kl..i only miss kl coz its where i met kila..hehe..luv youuuuu!

i wasnt born to be perfect

kan bagus klu idup ni ibarat masak nasi goreng..tumis bwg..msuk bahan2..masuk nasi..xckup lg..tmbah garam..perencah..nk sdp lagi tmbh la kicap..nk lg sdp..msuk kn sayur k aym k ikan..dah perfect..tp sayangnye idup manusia ni xda perencah..xda garam or gula utk make it perfect..coz we r not perfect..tapi kite boleh jd perfect in our own way..mungkin kite dari golongan kaye or sederhana..yg kaye x semestinye sng hati..x semestinye bahagia..yg miskin x semestinye ssh..mungkin diorg lbh bahagia dari yg kaye..btl x?..to make someone perfect..we sometimes have to compare our life with others..so yea..we had a tough life but hey..who knew there r even tougher life out there calling for help..dont be perfect just to be perfect but be perfect to make urself hapy..